Dear Mr Valentine, Please Bring Me Some Good News

so this Valentines Day has not been like most- in fact i'm not really much in the Valentines Day mood. I don't say this to sound like a debbie downer- in fact i don't want to be- not at all. I love Valentines Day- i love the little conversation hearts that i eat waaaaaaaaaaay to many of, i love the fact i don't need an excuse to eat a ton of chocolate, and most of all i love being with hubby because i feel that without him days like this would mean nothing- no day in my life would be the same without him.

i just wish that things would start going our way- i mean, we have had A LOT of bad news in the past couple of days- things i cannot blog about now probably will when it is all said and done. i want to feel like our life is going forward- i hate the phrase " one step forward, two steps back"- why is that fair? sometimes i just don't get how life works- or how the things that happen to us could possibly happen- isn't their a limit as to how much two people can handle and take on?

well i am trying my best to put myself in good spirits- tonight D and i are going out to Benihana's- I LOVE BENIHANA'S!!!! We are actually celebrating our 6 month anniversary- we have been married 6 months! can you believe that? i can't - it seriously feels like i just walked down the aisle a month ago! i look overall at my life and realize that even though i probably don't have everything i have always wanted (who does) does not mean that hubby and i won't get there- we will build a great life together- we have already started! i look at our small apartment, ever mounting pile of bills, and of course our hectic work schedules and i realize that it won't be like this forever- something is bound to change. If there is a Valentine Fairy could you just do one thing for me? Bring us some luck- some positive change,- show us a sign in the right direction, please? this is really all i can ask for- and i sometimes even feel selfish asking for things- but i feel like what we need right now more than anything is support- support to get through all of this crap so we can move on to better things. i know it will happen somedays i just get really tired of sitting and waiting, ya know?

well girls i am off to work- then off for some fabulous hibachi- leave me kind words- D and i could both use them right about now!

Have a wonderful Valentines Day with your significant others- i leave you with a picture of me and my love- i encourage you all to do the same- look at the happy times because life can't always be what you want it to be- it is important to remember what brought you here and what will bring you through- trust me it helps! :0)
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